You begin by saying that you have been partially gluten free for a year. If you do have celiac disease then you are putting yourself at risk of serious or even fatal complications by not being completely gluten free. People with celiac disease who do not adhere to a 100% GF diet are at greater risk for stomach cancer, pernicious anemia, osteoporosis (including men), other autoimmune diseases, thyroid disorders, and possibly, according to a recent study, are more vulnerable to tuberculosis. I suspect there are many more dangers than I have mentioned.
By not knowing if you do have celiac disease you remain in a state of mind that leaves you feeling ambiguous about these potential threats to your health and well being. This is only logical because a strict gluten free diet is a burden and complete adherence to it is vaguely liking losing an old friend. Reluctance to accept a diagnosis with celiac disease is not uncommon. I'm not suggesting these are your motives specifically, just saying that if they are it is easy to relate to that situation.
My suggestion to you is that you would benefit greatly from feeling more certain about whether or not you have this condition. It might also benefit your family members who would then know whether they are facing an increased likelihood of developing the condition.
You may have what is sometimes called
silent celiac disease, that is celiac disease with few or none of the classic symptoms doctors usually expect to find.
Current thinking about the amount of gluten required to trigger the undesirable autoimmune reaction is that only a small amount, maybe 20mg to 200mg per day of gluten ingestion is required. A single slice of white bread should deliver that dose. But if your plan is to have a doctor do an endoscopy and biopsy after a gluten challenge you should get her input on how much gluten-bearing food to eat.
I certainly do not envy you being in this state of limbo, and I hope it is resolved for you as soon as possible.
Many grains, wheat especially, set off a chain of events in any person that results in endorphins being released into the blood. This can help explain why it is so difficult for some people to stay on a strict gluten-free diet. That mild endorphin-induced sense of satisfaction one gets after eating a sandwich is very pleasant, I know very well that I miss it, but I chose a longer healthier life once I had been formally diagnosed.
I certainly would not have gone GF when I did if a doctor had not made it very clear to me that it was an absolute medical necessity. You should have that clear, unambiguous knowledge, if you can, so you can make the correct decision about your course of action based on the facts. Your survival could be at stake, your peace of mind is obviously involved.
Sometimes it is easiest to decide what you should do by thinking long and hard about it in a quiet room away from distractions caused by people or high tech gadgets. Once you do decide give yourself a reason to be glad by sticking with your decision. We'll be here to listen, share and use as a sounding board for new ideas.
Good luck!